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Usual ups and downs.

Fri Dec 5, 2008, 10:38 AM
Well, there's good news and bad news.

But first of all, I'd like to start off by saying sorry. I haven't been online lately, and I've missed loads of lovely work. Almost two weeks and I haven't resorted to ranting online.
Well, that time's over.
:)

The good news is:

The guy I like (Ciaren) and I were invited to my friends (Danny's) party, and even though we both had little or no to drink, we ended up getting a little... close. ;]
Least to say, we kissed. And now we're going to town together on Sunday for a 'date' of sorts.
I can't wait. :]

Also, I'm getting As and Bs in everything, which is a nice change.

And I've got xbox live gold. Which is awesome in many ways.

I've also started reading Twilight... and I'm surprised - I like it! Don't get me wrong, I love vampire books, but it sounded (because loads of people I know hate it) really crap. But theyre all wrong! Besides, who can pass up a good vampire story?


The bad news is:

My dad's getting married to that psycho bitch of a girlfriend. It's the worst news I've heard in a long time. I don't want it to happen, but I feel torn because I want him to be happy. So what do I do?

I'm still seeing the counsellor. I'm getting more and more uncomfortable every time I go, because I feel like I'm letting out too much information. I'm so not used to being so open about my problems, and it's really freaking me out. But at least someone wants to listen. In real life, anyway.

I'm also ashamed of myself, because of a few things i've done. But i'll try not to let it get to me. And I don't want to talk about it, so don't ask. I just need to write down the concept of it. y'know?



So, other than all that -

Christmas is in 20 days and exams in 47 days.

Im shitting it, but I'm also excited. :]

<3

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  • Mood: Insecure
  • Listening to: My xbox humming
  • Reading: Twilight. :)
  • Watching: My xbox.
  • Playing: nothing.
  • Eating: nothing.
  • Drinking: nothing.

Yeah...

Fri Nov 21, 2008, 4:38 PM
I didn't say anything to him. >_>

Not because I was scared - hell no!
But because... I'm not feeling my best. Which isn't very good to begin with.

+ what's more annoying is, I wanted to buy a subscription to cheer me up, but my card type isn't ANY of the options you get. Because

a) I'm not 18 yet
and b) they're all American.

FUCKSHITTWATEURGH!

This is what I hate about being young - you can't do anything!
Ok, wow, I get a job, but most employers prefer 18+. I can buy lottery tickets, but if I win, I can't collect the money until I'm 18.
¬_¬




But yes....

I have a four day weekend. Saw Stephen Lynch last night :) He signed my FACE, he said (whilst laughing! - yes, I made a comedian laugh.. PLUS his comedian friend too!) 'you're so crazy!'
:D
I also got a picture with him (the only decent spontaneous picture I've ever taken) + I got my ticket signed too.
eeeee.

Got back to my mates, watched Friends, and fell asleep after eating noodles.
mm.


I badly just want to get drunk on my own and just... y'know, reflect.
Sober reflection is getting depressing and boring.

I've taken to going for walks recently too. They're nice. Although I'm paranoid as hell, on my own. People always look at me funny. And then I just feel worse.

I should so do the female re-write of Catcher in the Rye. It'd be a best seller.

...or not.
^_^

anyway, yeah. if anyone wants to, my xbox live gamertag is Burnseyy ... but i havent gotten gold yet. poorness.
*shame*

ps. OMG THEY FINALLY SORTED THE EMOTICONS OUT!!

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  • Mood: Hopeless
  • Listening to: Nought.
  • Reading: What Is Clinical Psychology?
  • Watching: Meet the Parents.
  • Playing: nothing.
  • Eating: nothing.
  • Drinking: nothing.

Coursework, Gigs and Relationships

Wed Nov 19, 2008, 11:56 AM
Right... so, I never knew that you were asked to complete coursework so quickly in college. In high school you got like a month to do it! In college, I've got barely even a week. Got to be in for either tomorrow night... or Friday morning. Now, this weekend is going to make that complicated.

Friday = College closed.
Saturday = Weekend.
Sunday = Weekend.
Monday = College closed.

Yeah, that's an awesome thing... it's just that I'm fitting some important things into that time. ;)

Firstly, I'm finishing my English Lit Coursework for Thursday afternoon... because later I'm going to a Comedy Gig, featuring Stephen Lynch... a not very well known comedian, but I (and 3 of my friends) are fans :)

Won't want to ruin my night, will I?

Now that's all fine and dandy... but between handing in my Coursework, and going to the Stephen Lynch gig, I'm going to be asking the guy I like to the cinema.

That's right - forget all of that 'I'm too important to run around after a guy' or 'The guy should ask me out, I'm better than that'... I realised that I'm being a complete idiot, and trying that with a guy who has ADHD will have like zero outcomes... except failure.

So yeah. I'm quite nervous... but I have an okay feeling about it.
I'll know if he doesn't like me, if he says he's busy all weekend lol... but hopefully, I'm not THAT unbearable!

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  • Mood: Attraction
  • Listening to: hot n' cold - katy perry.
  • Reading: What Is Clinical Psychology?
  • Watching: my dog.
  • Playing: nothing.
  • Eating: nothing.
  • Drinking: nothing.

Blogthings mania

Sun Nov 16, 2008, 6:41 AM
to cheer up my journal, i've decided to revel in blogthings.com, and post my quizzes here, despite the fact that no one will read it. X)
feel free to steal 'em!

What Your Hands Say About You

You are logical, analytical, and rational. You have good verbal skills.

Bold and daring, you're not afraid to change your life if you think it needs an overhaul.

Brainy and intelligent, you are intellectual to the point of being incomprehensible.

Your emotions tend to be nervous and potent. Your energy - both positive and negative - deeply impacts your life.

hah. yerr, right.


The Ultimate Color Test

When you are at peace, you are:

Energized and innovative

When you are moved to act, you are:

Giving and warm

When you are inspired, you are:

Creative and productive

When your life is perfectly balanced, you are:

Light hearted and funny

Your life's purpose is:

To live a passionate life


you know, the funny thing is, a lot of that is right.


What Your Height Says About You

You are a sensitive, emotional, and even shy person.
You are a romantic in the truest sense. You see people as you wish they were.

You tend to be a very perceptive person. You are good at getting to the heart of the matter.
You tend to be quite pensive and reflective. You think everything out carefully.

You are about as tall as the average German woman.


lmfao, german woman. classic.

You Are 75% Hyper

You have an energy unlike any other. You're full of pep.
People wonder how you are able to get so much done. You love to keep busy.

It's likely that you're very physically active as well. You have a lot of physical endurance.
You are also quite outgoing. You're quick to start up a conversation and make friends.

You have the drive, confidence, and motivation to take you far in life.
While you may tire some people out, someone else is always looking to feed off your energy.


good to know!


You Are Running on 68% Adrenaline

Your Adrenaline Level: Borderline Dangerous

You're running around so fast, you don't realize how quickly life is passing you by.
While you may be getting a lot done, you're on the go lifestyle is probably wearing you out.

ok, I'd hardly say it's that bad lol. silly quiz.


Your Inner Child Is Sad

You're a very sensitive soul.
You haven't grown that thick skin that most adults have.
Easily hurt, you tend to retreat to your comfort zone.
You don't let many people in - unless you've trusted them for a long time.

fun stuff lol.

right, i'm bored now. time to do something else.

^-^

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  • Mood: Attraction
  • Listening to: Sober - pink
  • Reading: What Is Clinical Psychology?
  • Watching: my dog.
  • Playing: nothing.
  • Eating: nothing.
  • Drinking: nothing.

i can't stand it

Tue Nov 11, 2008, 11:27 AM
I can't stand this anymore.

i can't handle all of these little things happening & dragging me down.

i can't sleep.

i can't concentrate in college.

i don't have time to write or read.

my friends don't listen to me.

i feel guilty all the time.

i'm always feeling nostalgic.


i need a fucking break. ><

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  • Mood: Attraction
  • Listening to: Sober - pink
  • Reading: What Is Clinical Psychology?
  • Watching: my dog.
  • Playing: nothing.
  • Eating: nothing.
  • Drinking: nothing.
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